Little fingers.

Last night I had a very vivid dream- 

Nothing new for me I dream often and remember them often. 

Last night I dreamt about a baby girl. This is not the first time I have dreamt about babies however this is the first time the baby was so vivid that I can describe her to you now. 

What she looked like, what she was wearing, how her fingers looked.. 

She had dark long hair. A full head of hair in fact. 

Deep dark eyes - the kind of eyes that pierce threw you. 

This little button nose that matched her itty bitty mouth with full pink lips. 

She was tiny. She couldn't have been more than 5lbs. 

She had these long skinny fingers with these little nails. They wrapped right around my finger in my dream. I remember the little lines on her knuckles. 

She was wearing a pink onesie and on it read "twins" in pastel colors- a green T, a yellow W, a blue I, a pink N, and a white S.

There was only one baby in my dream though. 

She talked too- like I said she was itty bitty and there was no doubt it was a dream once the baby told me it didn't hurt her for me to hold her anymore. 

We never called her by a name. Someone else was there- Im thinking Rob, but I never saw him, only heard a voice. 

The voice said "You did good". 

I have babies on the mind all the time. Like I've said I have dreamt about babies before but never this vivid and they surely have never spoke to me. 

I like to think of signs from above. Maybe God heard my prayers and knew I needed some kind of reassurance that eventually everything is going to be okay. Maybe this dream was a look into a future that I've been having a hard time seeing lately. 

I've been struggling this cycle. After building up last cycle so much and having such a let down I never let myself build this cycle up. I'm still not building this cycle up- the catch is last nights dream helped me see a future with a baby. So while I'm still not feeling wonderful, happy thoughts about this cycle - I have not lost hope in a future. 

A future where there is a baby girl with a pink onesie.. or a baby boy in blue... who really knows what the future holds- or what this dream actually means- but I really can't get those little fingers and dark piercing eyes out of my mind this morning.