Thursday, May 16, 2013

On Baby Names and Waiting Games

A wonderful friend who is expecting twins announced the names of her babies this morning. This in and of itself did not bother me-- what bothers worries me is that what is someone takes our names?

The names that we have already chosen for our future children. The names of babies that are not here yet. The names we have talked about and the names that we love and cherish for many reason, but mainly that they are near and dear to our hearts.

What is while we continue to wait and wait those names are taken up by all of our friends?

I suppose its not the worst thing that can happen. After all we can come up with new names -- that wouldn't be the end of the world I suppose. It just seems like another injustice of having to wait and wonder -when? and how much longer?

I feel fine this morning- not much of anything going on. Still have AF which is a good thing I think - since last month it only lasted two days- we are up to four days this cycle. Last night I was a bit weepy- but I am normally weepy so combine weepyness with PMS and hormones and you get tears amplified. They were literally just flowing from my eyes for no apparent reason- and then I just started laughing because it was ridiculous because I didn't even know why I was crying. Some guy was popping and dancing on So You Think You Can Dance- it was not emotion provoking in the least so I'm going to go with my body just wanted  needed to cry.

Special note that I am thinking of my friend Rachel today as she under goes another IUI. My heart is with you today and may this one be the one for you love<3


  1. Kasey, it's aims! I remember thinking this EXACT thing -- and you know what? All my first choice names were taken by others (and even some of my second choice names)... but you will find the perfect name for your future child when the time comes. But in the meantime, it just is one of the many ways the situation feels SO unfair and the wait seems SO long. hugs to you.

  2. Thanks Aimee! That means so much and your right- sometimes I can't help but feel left out, left behind and feel down and out, but in due time we will be provided what we are suppose to and when that happens we will find the names that are meant to be.

  3. Why do you think I announced the names? LOL. Because for the past year I felt like people kept "taking" our names for our unborn children and I didn't want to worry about it anymore. All of those fears are still real fears when you are pregnant... you worry that much more about all of the little things because you struggled so much to get to that point. BUT, you also appreciate all of those things so much more. xo

  4. Den for the record you dust take our names :) lol