I'm on Progesterone so my period probably won't come until I stop the Endometrin. I will have a beta tomorrow to be absolutely positive- but in my heart I already am positive we are out.
I could write an incredibly depressing post about how frustrated I am- but instead I want to focus on some happy news. I can't continue to dwell on my failed cycles and fall down into a depression spiral - well I could since it still stings that IUI #2 that I felt so good about failed but- it won't do anyone any good and no one who is here reading this needs any more depressing posts then they are already getting.
Instead I want to shout some happiness from the rooftops. My friends over at "Who Shot My Stork" got a positive pregnancy test! If you follow them or read my blog a week or so ago you will remember that they just had an IVF cycle- the last cycle granted to them by their insurance company and that was after a battle with the insurance company to even grant them that.
And so as Risa and I were about on the same cycle day I directed my prayers towards her cycle. We still have insurance to cover us. We still have options and ways to turn. In my heart I know they needed this positive. Risa had 10 eggs retrieved and only 1 embryo survived and was transferred. I truly am over the moon for them that this 1 embryo stuck around.
They deserve this and I refuse to feel sad or cranky or bitter because they go their positive. Instead I want to suck up the positivity of their cycle and use it to propel me forward into what is next for us.
Maybe God heard my prayers for them and knew that this was their turn and maybe our turn is coming up soon. I wished that our prayers would be answered simultaneously- but since they weren't I could not be happier for Risa and Chris.
I will continue to say a prayer for you both as you continue on this journey. I can't express how happy I truly am for you both.
I have no idea what is in store for us next. Probably a break cycle- Im pretty sure I have another cyst as I am in a lot of pain again. I think I'm going to try acupuncture this cycle. There is a very well recommended place nearby and I have heard a lot of good things.
Have you ever had acupuncture? What did you think? What should I ask or so or expect?
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Have you gone gluten free? Did it help? Any recommendations on foods and alternatives?
Well thats where I stand today- a beta tomorrow and a meeting with my RE for a new plan... I check in soon with the official beta and what Dr S has to say. I have a few things to discuss with them, but if my journey sounds like yours and you have anything you think I should bring up please feel free to share.
I hope your Monday's are a bit brighter than mine here.
Hi Kasey, just catching up on your posts after being on vacation last week. I'm so sorry that this is looking like a negative again for you. I admire your positive outlook though and the kind words you have for your friend who just got her BFP. I really hope your turn is coming soon!! hugs!
ReplyDeleteI haven't tried acupuncture or gluten free, but am always interested in learning about what helps get a BFP, so I'll be checking back to see what your other readers have to say.
Hang in there, your BFP WILL be here one day, and you will be a great mommy :)
Kristine
Thank you so much Kristine! How have you guys been?
DeleteHi Kasey! We're good. We went camping last week and I feel more relaxed and refreshed than I have in a long time. I didn't temp this month since we were going to be gone, but I should be about 7 DPO. If we don't get pregnant this month I think we're moving on to clomid next month. Should know by this time next week whether we need to or not.
ReplyDeleteOn the weight loss front, that has been non existent! But a few friends of mine just started my fitness pal, so I'm gonna start tracking on there tomorrow. I figure if I have the accountability of them doing it maybe I'll stick with it. I hope.
Kristine
So glad to hear you are more relaxed. That's a great mind frame to be in. Praying you don't need a cloud cycle! Xo
DeleteI'm sorry you're out this cycle :-( I went gluten-free and think it helped with my BFP. I noticed the decrease in swelling almost immediately. Check out Cooking for Isaiah for great recipes.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much Amanda! I will definitely check it out!
DeleteHi Kasey, thanks for leaving a bridge to your blog! It's so hard to stay positive on this long rocky road - I'm glad you found a way to do so through your friend's successful IVF cycle. I hope things get better from here.
ReplyDeleteSounds like a lot of people are thinking about acupuncture these days, including me. I have been reading The Infertility Cure which is about TCM and it claims that a study showed that acupuncture increased blood flow to the reproductive organs, which could be help ART be successful. Other than that I've heard some anecdotal stories claiming it helped. General consensus seems to be, it can't do harm and it might do some good! I've decided to seek out a practitioner and have an intake appointment booked for early August. Some TCM practitioners do the full "fertility treatment" but that may not be for everyone. I am trying not to think of anything as the "magic cure" but rather learn about a constellation of things that might each help in their own small way.
cheerio
Thank you so much for the input:) Trying to stay positive can be a full time job in and of itself.
DeleteI've also heard a lot of people saying its relaxing. Im going to try it if for that and that alone and nothing else lol.