Monday, January 13, 2014

My Hair Tie Moments

I'm pretty sure the title says it all- the biggest side effect I have noticed as of now is that my emotions are completely off the charts. I go from the happiest person alive- laughing and joking and smiling to the opposite end of the spectrum and find myself all out crying and in fits of hysterics. 

My husband is a saint.At some point in time I am going to give him a present for dealing with me and my emotional craziness- I pray that the gift is a baby and it comes in about 9 months nice and healthy :) <3

Here is the low down on the medications- 

I can't decide which one I dislike more this go round. Don't get me wrong- I will take them 100 times over if it means a healthy, happy baby in the end. However, if I am being real-- they do suck. It's not something I would willingly do just for the heck of it.

Menopur- which I have taken in the past is causing the same issues I had in the past. It burns and the gauge on the needle is small so it takes longer to push the medication into the body, which means the burning is prolonged. 

Some say to ice the area, however I was advised by my nurse to try to avoid that so that the medication can disperse. I don't like the burning by any means, but I can deal with it so I haven't been icing at all. 

Gonal-F - This is the new one for me. The gauge on the needle is larger-- so it hurts much worse when you are inserting it into the skin, however the medication get pushed much faster since it is larger making the experience quicker overall than the Menopur.

I've been doing the Menopur first right now- mainly because I have to mix the Menopur and the Gonal-F I have doses already mixed up. So I burn and then the burning goes away because I stab and the stabbing pain takes over and then its all over and I treat myself with a glass of milk and a Hershey Kiss Cherry Cordial. Nom nom nom. 

So for the hormonal rage- Rob and I have come to call them my  "Hair Tie Moments"

On Saturday my Mom text me and asked me if I was working. I was in the midst of tying my hair up since Rob and I were heading out to run errands and it was raining. The second she saw I wasn't working she called me. I ended up leaving my hair tie on the bathroom sink and walking down stairs. When our conversation was over Rob and I left for our errands and I never put my hair up. This normally wouldn't really phase me. Sure I may be a tad annoyed that my hair was blowing all over in the rain, but I wouldn't let it throw everything off. 

Well, let me tell you. I was a hot mess. I was so upset that I didn't have this hair tie. I wanted to burst into tears and at that moment I realized I needed to just take a breather and relax it was just a hair tie. Rob and I even laughed over it. Rob told me to- "Chill out Incredible Hulk". So we've been joking and laughing about that since.

On Sunday I text Rob (he was at work) to  tell him about my "Hair Tie Moment" of the day. I figure its best to laugh about it. Sunday I went to Church, came home and promptly relaxed by binge watching Roseanne. 

Little secret- Roseanne reruns are by far one of my most favorite things, because typically they just make you laugh and laugh and laugh. However, on Sunday they played two episodes that have a serious undertone- One the Conner's are faced with a tornado. Now even though I know that the Conner's survive this natural disaster and go on to live another eight seasons, and even though I've seen this episode every single bit of 100 times I found myself crying my eyes out. 

Then of course after that episode Darlene has to have an appendectomy. Goodness me. I was snotting and losing it. What if my kid ever has to have an appendectomy!! Ohhh. 

Like I said Good Gravy!

I text Rob and told him I was sad about the Conner's life struggles and I knew I was crazy for it. Thankfully he laughed with me about it and no one was harmed in my hormonal fits, but I am sure that this is only the begining. 

Other than that I feel okay. A bit bloated and crampy, but okay. 

I go tomorrow for a follicle scan, lining check and blood work. I will be really really happy with 10 eggs for retrieval, but anything over 3 is considered a success and they will move forward with the IVF. Anything over 10 would be amazing. I'm doing my best to stay upbeat and positive no matter what we see tomorrow. Praying that tomorrow we get to see some growth as we move forward in this amazing journey.

23 comments:

  1. Oh your hair tie moments remind me of some moments I also had when I was doing IVF. I hope those moments become less for you girlie! I'm praying you get a good report from the doctor tomorrow...remember..."He's got you!" hugs!!

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  2. Thanks Elisha! He definitely has me!!

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  3. Hair Tie Moments... love it!! Praying that your appt tomorrow goes great!!! We are all invested in your journey with you!

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    1. Thank you Caroline!! I so appreciate that and I love having the support of so many wonderful, faithful women behind me! I feel stronger because of you ladies!!

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  4. I don't blame you! Forgetting your hair tie is definitely worthy of a tantrum if you really need it! hehe

    Hoping for a great report for you at your follie scan!

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    1. LOL Im glad someone sees it my way too! I've never been so frustrated over a hair tie! Ive since placed one in every purse and bag and in my car-- I won't be without one moving forward!

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  5. This stuff is so hard! Thank goodness for caring and understanding husbands. You're almost there, and hopefully soon the only hormonal mood swings you'll have to deal with are the pregnancy kind! Good luck making it through your next hair tie moment.

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    1. Amen- the husbands often get left out of the equation, but I am sure having a crazy hormonal wife is hard on him too. Thank you Megs :)

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  6. I love the term, but not that you're having those moments! Hopefully soon it will all just be a funny memory when you've got your little bun!

    P:S: I love Roseanne! It's helped me laugh my way through all kinds of life curves!

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    1. Sometimes you just have to laugh at yourself! I love Roseanne so much its insane how many times I can watch the episodes and still laugh!

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  7. Haha! I was so surprised that I was not a hormonal mess... I only cried during stims once when Sam left for 9 days which I think is a perfectly normal response... it was weird. I was expecting more of the Incredible Hulk style. : )

    I was on the same meds, but my needles were the same, so that's weird. Maybe ask if you can do a 27 1/2 gauge needle for the Gonal-F... that's what I had and Gonal-F was EASY. Menopur burns, there's no question, but I'm a fan of icing, like until I can't feel my skin anymore. No one mentioned it not dispersing... who knows, maybe it was less effective because I iced, but geez, it hurt a LOT less. I'm not sure if you're injecting yourself or not, but I found that I liked it best. It sounds crazy but it was much less painful!

    Good luck tomorrow! Hopeful for a bunch of even follicles!

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    1. I am definitely in Hulk mode! I wish the needles were the same size lol. I inject myself because I like the control of that. Thank you I hope there's lots of follies growing!

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  8. Those extra hormones sure are fun!

    Prayers for good follicles!!

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    1. Aren't they! Lol! Hope you are well!! xo

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  9. Oh gosh, that is hilarious-- the hair tie thing. I feel like I get ragey over things like that...and I don't even have crazy hormones to blame!!! :) Praying for good results at your scan!!

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  10. It's a blessing that you and your husband can laugh about your moments! I know mine is coming soon -- and I hope we can laugh about it too. Good luck on your scan tmr!

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    1. Thank you! I think the only way to go is to laugh at them :) Otherwise I would just keep crying lol.

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  11. Good luck tomorrow. I like that you're able to joke about it. One of the things I get irritated about is they never truly warn us for the emotional side effects of these meds, because obviously we would suck it up and endure almost anything if it would work.

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    1. I think that everyone's bodies handle the meds differently. Some have told me they had no emotional side effects-- and then there are people like me who obviously they affect differently. I'll take it all over and over again as long as I get to have a healthy baby in the end.

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  12. Oh my gosh, I'm just now discovering the awesomeness of Roseanne. I wasn't allowed to watch it as a kid, but I'm loving the re-runs. Praying for good numbers for you tomorrow!

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    1. I <3 Roseanne! She usually can make me smile no matter what-- usually lol. Thank you Lisa!

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  13. Hope the moods have evened out by now. Thankfully even if they haven't you have an amazing partner.

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