Last night was "Girls Night Out" in the Historic Town of Smithville. Smithville is a small town, about a half hour from where I live, that has a bunch of small shops and crafters. My Mother In Law received an email that they were having a "Girls Night Out" and asked if I would go with her.
It was very nice event. Some of the stores had a little chocolate sampling or a small glad of wine. I got my Mother In Law a new charm bracelet and a few new beads. Her birthday is three days after Christmas, so I told her this would be her birthday gift. She tried to give it back to me to wrap up and give to her on her birthday, but I told her to just wear it and enjoy it now.
I also spent a little money on myself.
I just love owls. When I first started seeking fertility help I bought a bracelet that had two owls attached and said hope. I would wear it to all of my treatments until it broke. Since then I have come to love owls. I would even like to include owls in our nursery someday. So these little guys represent hope, life, and love for me. I'm pretty sure I will wear them until they break or I lose one (isn't that always how it happens?).
I also got this new bright purple watch for work. I used to have a white watch, but since I am left handed and like to wear my watch on my left wrist, it always was covered in blue ink. Eventually most of it just turned a dull blue/dirt color. This one is so much fun. Its bright and happy and hopefully won't fade to that blue/dirt color.
We are meeting with my in-laws next together next Tuesday to tell them about our IVF plans. They really don't know anything about our quest to make them grandparents and the struggles we've had so far. We decided that it would be best to have their support as well as we go through this and so we are going to sit down with them and tell them about it.
The thing is Rob keeps telling his Mom and Dad that we "have something we need to talk to them about" and I am pretty sure his Mom thinks we are going to tell them we are expecting.
I ordered wine at dinner with her last night to help stop those thoughts in their tracks, but I still couldn't help but think that is what she thinks already. I'm sure they will be a positive support for us, but I can't help but to feel like I am letting them down again. Just like I sometimes feel like I am letting my husband down as well.
I know that's not the case. I really have no control over it all at this point and I am keeping the faith that when the time is right we really will be blessed with all the joy and happiness in the world.
Please note my period is still not here. So who knows what is going on. I guess I will test again tomorrow to see if their has been any change. We have an Ugly Sweater Party tomorrow night :)
Can't wait to share some "Ugly Sweater" photos with you guys!