Last night at the wedding I got very crampy. At first I thought I had a stomach ache or ate something bad so I rushed off to the bathroom. I started my period.
A 23 day cycle. IUI 6 is officially over. If I can find any solace at all its that I didn't have to wait the entire weekend to find out the results which alleviates the anxiety attack that was pending.
I also left the bathroom and marched right to the bar and had a glass of wine. Rob and I talked about what we want to do next. Definitely taking two months off. I am going away in November for a girls weekend and I don't want to be fretting over timing and cycling Then comes December and Christmas and I don't need to be stressing out during my favorite season.
We decided that we will go to our consultation appointment with opens eyes and ears and see what they want to do next. I'm pretty sure they are going to recommend IVF and Rob thinks we should do it.
I am not sure what I am feeling right now. Relief that I don't have to wait till Monday and get a call while I am at work and told that this cycle is a bust. Sad that my body can't pull it together. Happy that I have my husband by my side to lift me up. Even happier that my friend Kristien text me and lifted me up in prayer just as I got my period last night.
The wedding was nice. I sounded so awful yesterday saying I couldn't see myself being happy for my friends during their wedding day. Even before my period started I was happy to be there with them. Weddings are a great time to listen to the sermon and reaffirm your vows to one another. Weddings are a beautiful union and my friends through a wonderful party. We laughed and had a great time and I am so grateful to be there to celebrate with them.
|Rob wouldn't smile...|
I'm off to make a grocery list. Im putting all the focus I have been using on cycling towards eating better and healing both mentally and physically. I have to wait till after my period and then get another ultra sound to be sure my ovaries have decreased in swelling so that I can start running, but today I plan on enjoying the day we were blessed with. Its like a May day here and I want to enjoy every second of it.