I did it. I tested this morning for two reasons-
1) I think a lot of this missed period
2) Tonight is a girls get together. Its called a Pinterest Party, where everyone chooses a recipe or craft from Pinterest and recreates it for the group. There will be wine and drink and if I want to responsibly take part in the vino I need to know for sure that I am not pregnant.
The results?
Bring on the vino.
Stark white negative. I was going to share a picture, but its depressing and I know how much BFN's suck for me to view so why keep viewing it.
I really already knew this, but I also had some hope that maybe I would be that girl. The one waiting for her IVF cycle that miraculously ended up pregnant. Alas that girl is not me. At least not this time. At least I can have a glass of wine tonight and prepare to move forward mentally…and hopefully physically as well. Thank you all for your hope and prayers- you ladies are so wonderful at being the optimist when the pessimist in me takes over.
So about this Pinterest Party- tonight I am making this:
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I also wanted to share the photos of our home repairs -
This is our bathroom that was completely destroyed. The titling and walls and ceiling are all new. Its so pretty now. |
Last night Rob hung all of our art back up. It looks perfect now. |
Today I am going to lunch with a girl friend and then cooking for the Pinterest Party. It will be a great distraction and hopefully AF will appear now that I removed the mental blockade.
I think it should be a rule that if anyone gets a BFN, their girls should come over with wine and cheesey bread. Sounds like the perfect evening to cheer you up. Also that bread looks amaaaaaaazing! I get a lot of recipes from Pinterest but I haven't tried that one yet!!
ReplyDeleteI will let you know how it turns out :) Cheesy bread and wine definitely will help!
DeleteOn my top ten list, I think Cheezy bread and wine are right below a BFP. That sounds amazing!
ReplyDeleteLOL it was very good :)
DeleteSorry for the BFN - even when you logically know it's probably negative, it still really sucks. But wine and cheesy bread and girlfriends! That will be awesome. And the bathroom looks amazing.
ReplyDeleteThanks Megs! It was awesome and totally helped my mood!
DeleteAww boo! But it's not over until it's over. I am glad that you will be able to enjoy some fun with friends tonight. That recipe looks really yummy and I hope it comes out perfect. Also your home is lovely, I am glad the repairs are over so you can find peace at home again. Lastly that nursery will be filled soon enough God hears you my sweet friend. XO
ReplyDeleteYour very right like Emily pointed out if I ovulated very late there is still a chance for this cycle!
DeleteSorry it was negative but that pinterest party sounds like a wonderful distraction. Hoping that soon you'll have good news and nursery to fill.
ReplyDeleteThanks.. it was a wonderful distraction :)
DeleteAw, I'm sorry you got a BFN. Wine and Cheesy bread sound like a perfect way to absorb the white test (oh, I so know what you mean about the stark whiteness of the damn tests). And girlfriends...and I LOVE the idea of a pinterest party, I've never heard of one! That sounds so fun! Enjoy yourself tonight, you deserve to let go a bit and just have a good time.
ReplyDeleteIt was the perfect pick me up for after a negative! I should plan those for every cycle so that I can always have something to distract me!
DeleteKasey, I'm so sorry about the BFN. As much as we expect to see them, it doesn't really make it any easier. I hope you have a great relaxing time at the pinterest party tonight. Yumm!
ReplyDeleteI love your new bathroom! And the future nursery color is great! Our future nursery is painted yellow, so it too will be gender neutral and ready for whichever babe decides to join us!
Thanks Kristine! It was very relaxing and I love my new bathroom too!
DeleteOh friend I'm so sorry. God I know how much those negative suck. I am glad you have a distraction. Distractions are the only thing that can help me get through after something like that. 2014 will be our year. It has to be.
ReplyDelete2014 will be our year! Im rooting for you guys too!
DeleteDang it! When I read some of your symptoms it made me think you were pregnant because the one time I got a BFP I was always starving. I'm sorry you had to see the white negative. I hope you have a wonderful time at your pinterest party, and I hope AF comes soon!
ReplyDeleteEmily raised a really good point I may have ovulated really late so I suppose there is still a chance.
DeleteSorry to hear of the BFN and a lingering cycle. Maybe you just ovulated really late? Sometimes natural cycles following a medicated cycle can be extra long because O is delayed. Did you track ovulation? Either way, I'm just sorry you don't feel you'll get to be "that girl". Glad you are busying yourself...Pinterest party sounds so fun and that bread looks AMAZING!
ReplyDeleteYour right I suppose there really is still a chance.. I haven't tracked O at all.. I don't even know if I ovulated. Pinterest party was great!
DeleteWell there ya go! I bet you either ovulated late or haven't ovulated at all. I mean, I hope you've ovulated but just late, so you aren't waiting forever for the outcome and also so there is still a chance for a pregnancy if you've been having intercourse!
DeleteStill holding out the hope :)
DeleteSorry about the BFN. It's true; it doesn't matter how much the signs point toward BFN, it still sucks to get it. And it maybe sucks just that bit more when there are pregnancy symptoms before it. It's good that you have a party to go to and some delicious food and wine to look forward to. I find if I can keep my spirits up for those first 48 hours then things are OK. Your recipe looks delicious! I have no been cooking anything imaginative lately, but I did get inspired a little in the "craft" department - so I'll maybe share some photos in the next few days. :-)
ReplyDeleteThe recipe was so good! Please share your crafts! I so wish I was more crafty!!
DeleteSorry to hear this girl!!! I just know that God has that very perfect moment for the BFP! He already knows the day! I love that you do pinterest parties, btw!!! How fun!
ReplyDeleteThank you Caroline!
DeleteSeeing that missing line is heartbreaking every single time even when you have almost zero hope for that cycle. I love your Pinterest girls night idea and am inspired to do something like that myself. Also, the home repairs look great. We have tile up to the ceiling in our shower too and it is fantastic.
ReplyDeleteThanks Marcy! I love the tile to the ceiling its perfect!
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