Hello My Loves!

It has been awhile since I've updated. I'm so sorry for that, but life has been hectic and crazy lately. There is so much to update you all on, but most important is that the babies and I have reached 22w4d today and are healthy and happy! Some of the important things to catch you all up on-

-We are being blessed with two little boys <3 <3 Jonathan Carmine and Robert Joseph Jr<3

- For 16 weeks I suffered from hyperemesis (aka vomitting a alot), and only gained 2lbs so far in my pregnancy. Thankfully even with only a 2lb gain our boys are measuring 13oz and 11oz (as of our 20week scan) which is right on target with a singleton pregnancy!

-We are all still healthy with no complications.

-I am still working full time and even pulling some overtime hours here and there

Thank you all for checkin in on us and keeping up today<3 It means a lot that people are always thinking and praying for us! I promise to do a better job of keeping everyone up to date :) xoxo

And Then My Husband Told The World

He of course asked me first- but he couldn't keep our secret anymore and today he announced our blessings on Facebook with this post- 

Kasey and I are extremely happy and excited to announce that Kasey is pregnant!!! Even better than that, we are going to have twins. We were able to hear both heartbeats and are both doing very well. We ask that your keep Kasey and the babies in your thoughts and prayers as it is still early and we have a long road ahead of us. We feel truly blessed for these miracles and that we can share it with our family and friends!!!!

Kind of a strange time to tell the world since just a day ago I thought I was going to lose the babies due to our bleeding scare. The more I heard from everyone, the more common I saw that bleeding really is. I am extremely thankful that the bleeding has not returned and am continuing to take it easy. 

I think Rob announcing to our friends and family on the internet shows our faith that things are going to go just find. It also helps to know that we have added to the amazing web of people who are praying for us daily. Our faith will keep us strong- yes it will! But the faith of others praying for us will surely help to strengthen us even more! 

I added this on my page as well -

- I couldn't possibly thank everyone enough for all of your out pouring of love and prayers over Rob, The Babies, and I. I'm so thankful for the amazing friends and family we have and those that we continue to make. The babies are so incredibly blessed and loved already. Rob and I (and all the Grandparents!) are incredibly excited and over the moon happy for this blessing 


-And I just wanted to add a special note to any of you who are silently suffering as you endure the unbelievably painful battle with infertility and/or loss, please know you are forever in my prayers. I know that sometimes pregnancy announcements can come as hard blows, but please know you are not alone and miracles do come true♥

Admittedly I had copied what Liz from Wishing on A Snowflake had written during their Facebook reveal and edited it some. (Hope you don't mind Liz, your words were perfection for what I wanted to say!)

For today- we are so very thankful <3 

And Then I Started Bleeding

I know for some women this may bring back memories of awful things gone wrong. Please no worries if you want to look away. I will preface my entire post by saying so far everything is okay for the peanuts and I, but that certainly does not make it less terrifying.

Yesterday was my first day back to work after 16 days off. Not that they were quiet days off- it was Disney World. I walked miles and miles and for the most part felt pretty good. My full time job is as a 911 Dispatcher- yes high stress- however I remain seated for the majority of my days. 

Yesterday was no different then any other day at work. It was filled with moments of stress and followed by down time. We were busy, but I wouldn't rank it as a bad day- other than it was very difficult to stay awake for the entire shift. 

I did it though. I made it to the end of my shift and it was time to clock out. On my way a coworker and my boss got into a tiff about his call outs. I wasn't involved, but it did upset me that it was happening right there on my way to clock out. I made it to the time clock and then stopped at the bathroom since I can't make it all the way home without having to pee. 

Coincidentally a coworker that I haven't seen in awhile stopped me while I tried to enter the rest rooms and after some small talk actually asked me if I was "knocked up yet". First off- I hate that term "knocked up" and second why do people think its okay to ask. I joked a bit with him and he told me to "keep on trying its the best part." 

Side note- anyone that thinks that trying it the "best part" has never actually tried to get pregnant or in his eloquent, but probably well meaning word "knocked up."

I noticed right away- bright red blood in my panty liner (I'm wearing liners due to the Crinonine). The liner was pretty well soaked through, but as I wiped there wasn't any more bright red blood- it was more brownish and rust colored and there wasn't too much. I was paralyzed with fear. You aren't supposed to bleed while pregnant. Bleeding is bad. My heart pretty much stopped and I sucked in a deep breath as a million and one scenarios ran through my brain. 

First I wasn't cramping so that was a good sign, but it was bright red and that was a bad sign. Then more obscure thoughts passed through my mind- they don't have names yet- they need names. And this can't be happening. Then I started to pray.

I left work and got into my car and text my best friend. She told me to calm down and take some deep breaths and that while its scary she had bleeding in her second pregnancy and everything turned out just fine. She asked about cramping and how I was feeling and then told me to call my doctor to be sure they know. 

Since I am in the process of leaving the RE and moving forward with my OB I am sort of in between doctors. I called my RE though since I have yet to even see my OB. I left a message on the nurse triage line and really didn't expect to hear from them until this morning since there was nothing they really were going to be able to do anyway. 

I got home and my husband asked how my day was. I meekly told him about the bleeding and how I called the doctors office and was hoping for a call back. We both decided neither one of us wanted to make dinner- heck I barely wanted to eat dinner- in fact I really just wanted to throw up. Instead I made a bowl of Apple Jacks and picked at them- finally just drinking the milk and calling it a night. 

As I was about to go upstairs to lay in bed my doctors office called. One of my nurses was on the line and she asked a lot of questions about how I was feeling and what type of bleeding. So told me that since it was turning rust colored and brownish that it lead her to believe that it was old blood now and that while I should be on high alert I should do my best not to stress.  (Hahhaha) She told me that there are lots of causes for bleeding in pregnancy- and especially in the first trimester of a twin pregnancy. Causes listed were a possible UTI, my uterus expanding faster then my body expected, endometrin lining being disrupted.. and so on and so forth. She also went on to say that of course bleeding could be a sign of miscarriage- but not to worry about that unless the bleeding continues or cramping starts. She told me if I continue to bleed, it gets heavy, or I experience cramping to call them today. 

She left me with orders to keep my feet up when possible, try to remain stress free, continue to hydrate, and be sure to continue not to lift anything over 5lbs and avoid exerting myself. 

All in all it sounded like she wasn't too worried and that helped ease my fears some. I had a lot of trouble sleeping last night- I dreamed of lakes of blood and crying very vividly and when I wasn't dreaming I was up praying and thinking of names for the babies. 

This morning I woke up and when I went into the bathroom and right away wanted to check for bleeding- thankfully there was none. Not even a trace. My morning was also met with a healthy dose of morning sickness which I am pretty sure I have never embraced or wanted to feel more. 

I am still terrified. I didn't ever expect to see blood and I surely would be just fine with never seeing blood again. Ever. Hopefully it doesn't return and it was just some random bleeding. I am doing everything I can to remain as calm as humanly possible. 

I just keep praying over the babies and over my body. Praying that my little peanuts are just fine in there and continuing to thrive and grow. Praying that this is only the first of many scares that I am sure over the years that they will give me.

About Telling All the Grandparents

I can't believe I forgot to tell you all about how the reveal with the parents went. On Wednesday- after our ultra sound to confirm that there were two little peanuts growing big and strong- we had my parents over. 

My parents don't have a printer so they needed a few things printed out for them so we invited them over so that we could do that for them. Of course the real reason I waited till Wednesday to have them over was to wait until after our ultra sound to tell them. 

I found these blocks on Etsy and had them shipped to us. 

 When my parents came over I did all of their paperwork and then gave them a bag with a card. Their anniversary had just passed so I told them it was their anniversary present. My Mom loves to talk -and she kept delaying actually opening the present. Rob and I kept looking at each other like "Come on open it up already!!"

When she opened it up it was backwards and facing us so I told her to turn it around and she burst into tears. Then my dad said "Oh no, not a gift that's going to make her cry all day!" That's when my mom handed it to my dad and he promptly burst into tears too. At which time I burst into a fit of hysterics myself. 

The twins first ultra sound photos are separate because they couldn't get a good shot of both of them together so we handed the picture of baby a to my Mom- then Rob said "want to see your other grandchild!" Then Rob handed the picture of baby b to my dad. 

To say everyone was over the moon is an understatement. 

We planned to tell Rob's parents at dinner in Florida the next night, but we knew that the second I declined on wine at our fancy dinner the jig would be up. Plus we were all going to the grocery store before dinner and I needed things like saltines, ginger ale, and goldfish to survive. More clues and we really wanted to try to surprise them. 

I made up a gift bag with the same blocks as above and we told them it was a thank you for letting us stay in the time share at Disney with them. Rob's mom opened it right up and then started to read it out loud. When she got to the "grandparents" line she subsequently also burst into tears. Then I looked over at Rob's dad who was also crying. Cue me crying again.

In fact talking- talking about everyone crying has me crying again. 

We did the same thing with the ultra sound photo's for Rob's parents. When Rob's sister made it in from Arizona Rob simply asked her if she wanted to be called "Aunt or Auntie". For the record she's going with Aunt. 

I think the part that got me the most was our fathers crying. Specifically a moment with Rob's dad where he told me he didn't think he would make it to see his grandchildren.

During our struggle to get pregnant I often thought about our fathers not making it to be Pop-Pops. Both of our Dad's are not exactly the healthiest of people. If Im being honest there were moments where I cried out to God - please, please let them be Pop Pops. I didn't realize they were crying out to God the same prayers.

Thankfully our prayers were answered. I know some people wait to tell their families and others- but in this moment I am so glad that I told our families. In this moment they are all Grandparents and no one can take that away from them.

Home Sweet Home & 7w4d

We're home from an amazing trip to Walt Disney World with my husband and in laws. While we had a wonderful time away I am so glad to be home-- snow and all. We went from 70 and 80 degree weather with shorts and tee shirts to -10 degree wind chills and 6 inches of snow and its still coming down. Mother nature surely is amazing. 

We spent 10 days in Disney- visiting with family and friends and we were pretty much unplugged. I posted a bit on Facebook, but our timeshare didn't have much in the way of service so we were able to really enjoy one another without  the internet or social media to really interrupt our time together. 

I felt okay most of the time- some days of intense nausea and no appetite. A fierce battle with constipation. Fatigue was probably the worst of it though since a lot of Disney is walking around and that seemed to take a lot out of me. All in all it wasn't too bad and I am so thankful for that. 

We visited all of the parks, saw our Godson who lives in Florida, took in the sunshine, saw a preseason baseball game, and spent time together. 

We visited the RE this morning- we had a wonderful update. Both babies are doing wonderful and we got to hear their heartbeats. When my nurses told me I was released to my OB I cried my eyes out. Those ladies were amazing and I am so going to miss them. 

Now for some pictures- at the end there will be some ultra sound photos as well so if you aren't in a good place- and we've all been there- take in the Disney Photos and no worries about skipping the rest <3 

One of my most favorite sights...

Cinderella's Castle on Main Street just prior to the Wishes Fireworks

Beautiful shots of the fireworks show

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Epcot :) 

My boy missed his mama <3
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Twins first Disney trip :) 

Todays ultra sound photos- 7 weeks 4 days-- we heard two amazing heart beats today <3

Twin A and Twin B in one photo 

Twin A- measuring ahead at 7 weeks 5 days 

Baby A's heart beat163bpm

Baby B -measuring ahead at 8w1d

Baby B's heart beat at 160 bpm

One of Rob's favorite photos from vacation :) 

We are just so incredibly blessed- looking forward to catching up with everyone. I've missed you all and I hope there is lots of good news that I missed while away <3 

And The Ultra Sound Says

We leave for Disney tomorrow so I will be a bit off line -- which also means I will be missing out on ICLW. Ill do my best to read and try to comment, but I don't really plan on writing many- if any- posts while I am away enjoying vacation with the family. 

If this is your first time stopping by Rob and I have been TTC for over 3 years. We've had 6 failed IUI's- 3 attempts with Clomid and 3 attempts with Menopur. I have been diagnosed with PCOS and possible Endometriosis. I never had a final diagnosis on the Endo because we opted out of the lap procedure and went forward with our first IVF. We started the IVF process in the beginning of October with paper work and the particulars and our cycle started at the beginning of January. 

On the 28th of January we had our transfer of 1 AA and 1 AB embryo. On February 3rd I had my first positive HPT and have had wonderful -high even- beta's since then. Today was our first ultra sound and we were praying that we would get to see something. Today I am 5 weeks 6 days. 

I just wanted to say that if you are in the trenches and having a hard time with ultra sound photos or pregnancy announcements or pregnancies that I know that feeling well. It took a long time for me to embrace others pregnancies. So no worries if you aren't in the right place I don't want to cause you any more pain. Please know that I am available to answer questions though and am always here to pray for anyone in pain or that needs an extra thought passed their way. Feel free to email me stupidbrokeneggs@gmail.com. For now keep the faith <3 Good things are coming your way! 

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Without further ado- 

Baby A on Top and Baby B on the bottom

Its twins ya'll!!! Baby A is measuring ahead at 6w4d and Baby B at 6w0d. We are just so incredibly blessed! Over the moon excited!! We can not wait to tell our parents :) 

God is so good! And we are so excited <3 <3

We know that we have a ways to go- that there are things that can happen such as vanishing twin, but we're holding tight to our faith that we are having two babies! 

Thanks for all the love <3 We're heading off to see Mickey Mouse and celebrate in Disney World!